As the holidays approach, I have really started to think about what I am most thankful for. I know that I should be doing this more often throughout the year, but in this season it just seems to come naturally.
I think as a fault, I don't say thank you enough, or really understand the hard work it takes from the people I love to make this family work. I have seemingly been taking some individuals for granted, and lately, swallowing my pride just hasn't been happening. I have always had a hard time saying sorry. I think as a kid, no one really said sorry to me, so I just learned that it wasn't really something that people did, even if they were sorry. Not like this is any reason or excuse, but I see it haunting me now in my everyday life. My life is busy, yes, and so is my husbands. He works very VERY hard to take care of the two of us, and I don't think that I have been very careful of making sure that he knows that I appreciate him. Our life has slipped into a monotonous routine, I get used to saying goodbye, and he gets used to being away from home. Neither of us like this one bit, but neither of us can do anything about it. It all comes at a cost. I hate him being away, yet he can't give anything up due to finances. It's for sure put a strain on things, for instance, me having the baby all day, most days. We both are full time students, and he works practically 3 jobs. One is full time, the others part time. It's a lot. And when I say a lot, I really mean it.
We are still getting used to our lives changing, and I think we may never actually get used to it. It's always constantly moving, and I have to make a more conscious effort to say thank you, give a hug, and stop and understand that the 9-5 and weekends away are all for US. It's hard because I want to get mad, and think that he is doing this for fun, but he's not. He would much rather be home than away from us, and I need to get that. It's something that I need to work on, along with saying sorry and being more appreciative. He's a wonderful father and husband, and I thank God that he's in my life. Bean adores him, as do I, and I don't know where we'd be without him.
We are moving to a wonderful new house, and love everything about it, except one thing. It's a tri-level. Downstairs is the master bedroom and bathroom, and the garage. The mid-level is the kitchen and the front room. Upstairs is the living room, bedroom and bathroom. Bean's room will be the upstairs bedroom. Now, keeping in mind, most nights she doesn't wake up until around 6:00 a.m., but I am wondering if I should have her sleep with us until she is an all night sleeper. I don't know how long it will be before she receives such a milestone, so maybe this is the best thing...I am conflicted! She naps from 8-9, wakes up, eats, goes back to bed around 11, and then sleeps until 6-ish. She sleeps great but not being right next door to her will be really different for us. She sleeps really well whether she is with us or not, but I seem to sleep better when she is in her own bed, so I don't wake at every stir. 
